I feel I have grown a whole lot over the year. I've been through a lot of shit. It's been hard but I made it. I'm going to a great school next year and I'm really happy.

I feel like I'm finally growing up. I'm not so scared to anymore. I mean I do have the kid side to me but it's not as predominant. Relationships are the facuet of adult I have to master yet. I know I'm still in a kid in that department. I'm working on it.

We're going on a roadtrip next week! Yes! It's our last real thing together. It's bittersweet. I mean on one hand I don't wanna leave my friends I love them. On the other I'm ready to move on. I really truly am. I won't stop being friends with them but I know things won't be the same after this.

So I'm going to MN at the end of the month. I'm so incredibly nervous. Everyday that draws nearer to it makes me more and more nervous. I mean I did come to a realization with the whole Sam thing. I still have to see him though. I mean honestly I would love to get back together with him but if he can't see what his mistakes are and make up for them, it's not going to happen. It's totally up to him and that kind of scares me. I don't have much faith in the boy. Maybe I'll be surpised who knows. Either way I'll be moving on to something better.

So I have no idea if I'll ever write in this thing again. I'm not going to delete it but I feel that I have no use for it anymore really. I'll leave it here and look back on things. I don't know.

My life is finally moving forward. I'm happy. Love ya all! *Mwah*

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